Bogged Down . . .

Hi, everyone. I’m back . . . sort of. I haven’t been writing because I’ve been bogged down lately, and not known how to put it into words. I’m still not sure if this will be worth the read, but for my own sake, I have to try.

Remember when I wrote about the adventure – how I felt like I was white-water rafting? And then I was floating along on smooth waters? Well, the raft seems to have taken a small tributary that ended in a bog! I told Bob this afternoon that I felt like I was lost in a jungle and could not see any way through.

Olympic National Park, WA

It doesn’t make sense. Aside from this aberrant emotional state, things are going well. The CML medication is working very well and all my blood tests are normal; we went on a great mini-vacation to the ocean on the Olympic Peninsula a couple of weeks ago. . .

View from our cabin – Quilleute Reservation, WA

I am looking forward to a visit next month with my precious family and friends back in Ontario; our preparations to move onto the boat when we return are coming along nicely; we have a summer of cruising the beautiful southern BC coast planned; and in the Fall, we’ll be moving back home to Ontario. So, I say with the psalmist:

“Why are you downcast, O my soul? Why so disturbed within me? Put your hope in God, for I will yet praise him, my Saviour and my God” (Psalm 42:5).

I know that God is faithful and loves me and is with me, but I can’t find comfort in this truth right now. My eyes have been on the tangled growth around me and on the mire sucking around my ankles. I need to get my eyes back on you, Lord. Help me!

“Send forth your light and your truth, let them guide me . . . to the place where you dwell” (Psalm 43:3).

I was doing so well in the beginning. I’m usually on a pretty even keel.

Now, at times, I am barely keeping my head above the water, like this humpback whale!

Bob thinks I’m down because of some symptoms I have been having lately that may or may not be side-effects of the medication.

Please pray for me. I will not wait so long to report.

One good thing I can see is the humbling factor in all this!

~ by Sunshine on April 29, 2008.